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Yayy I'm finally posting, I haven't posted in forever huh?
I know >:[
Well yeah my vacation was awesome so farr.

Me and the fam went to Grand Canyon, it was seriously breathtaking, I felt like I was in like a painting.
To me, when I see like a beautiful place, that's not just what I see.
I'm seriously desperate to travel to different countries so I always think like the people that live there better know they're luckyy. And I'm sure people in different countries think the same thing about going to Las Vegas or Grand Canyon, so you truly need to cherish being there you know? Haha, or am I thinking too much in to it?

So anyway, what's sad is I haven't seen my friends in like forever, since summer school ended T.T, total effing bummer. I miss them soo much!

I know I've said this before, but I seriously feel like I'm changing a lot in the summer, maybe even too much, I don't know if it's like a phase, or something but I'm seriously drastically changing.

My style in music is changing, and perspectives on certain things.

I don't even know if it's like a bad change or good, cause my parents and I fight like wayyyy more than usual, we go at it like every day, it's tiring as hell.

Example, I used to seriously hate Marilyn Manson, but I judged too quick, his music is actually really good (to me). His remake of Sweet Dreams is seriously genius.
The same goes for The Used.

My room is going through serious construction as you know, so my mom is like tripping out saying I'm turning into the devil's child or something, I'm like YOU NEEDA CALM DOWN. Then again, she over reacts about everything.

I've been feeling this a lot more than usual, but being a pastor's kid is REALLY hard.
I know you think you understand but you seriously don't unless you are one.

I'm not given any room to breathe, my mom and dad just smother me with their overprotective-ness and expectations.
We have to move every two years.
At church I'm absolutely unable to be myself because of having to keep my dad's good image.
I'm forced to like people I dislike.
I end up going astray from what's good because that's the only thing I was exposed to all my life.
Everyone sees you as this saint, you make one false move, and you're unaccepted.
You lose the sense of who you really are from having to change every time you move to make new friends.

There's so much more to that list, but I don't want to be too whiny.
So to the person who said I should feel grateful to be a pastor's kid, you don't know jack, so shut your mouth.

Bad vibee lol.
Okay, lemme get back in my jolly mood haha.
My parents forced me to go to this place that's where all pastor's meet, kind of like a retreat for them except there's much more free time. But honestly I'm so mad cause there is NOTHING for me to do here. There are some kids here, but either they're drastically younger than me, or they're beepholes haha.
So there is no internet here except in the dining area which is like 500 miles away from the place we are staying, and there's NO RECEPTION.
Then again, it's not like these are absolutely necessary items in my life in the hunter-gatherer sense of the world, but I still want it!

So yeah, I think that's all I'll blog for now, this ended up kind of long, yay!!

Well bye!