argg, impossible dreams
Wednesday, June 10, 2009 3:13 PM
it was out of 80 questions and I think I guessed on like more than half even WITH a cheat sheet lol, that's pathetic.
Sometimes I really hate being Asian, no joke.
People are always like ohh don't stereotype us with being nerds and stuff, but it's like true lol.
Well maybe not about the children, but like the Asian sterotype parents is like DEAD ONN. They really do push us way too hard.
What bothers me the most is how like my other Asian friends' parents are just like, "Oh do your best."
But my parents SAY that, but when I end up with like a B-, they like flip out and are like why the hell isn't this an A?
I promise myself every day to try and not end up like that kind of a parent, hopefully I succeed in thatt.
I don't know, my parents are so judgmental of me, they never understand that I am my own person, I've got to do things the way I think is right.
My mom always says things like "pursue your dream" but the truth is, that's not what she wants me to do at all. When I say what I want to do, she looks at me with those your-throwing-your-life-away eyes.
It just kind of sucks, I just can't wait to get to college OUT OF STATE. I want to be far, I want to go somewhere where I can start on my own, where I'm just completely independant.
I mean no doubt that's going to be a big challenge, but I think it's what I need to do, seriouslyy.
I always wanted to go to school in New York or London and just experience different things, like taking taxis, and being able to sketch anything I see. I'm a very big dreamer, so when my mom crushes them, I feel like she's crushing me too.
My parents just don't understand that.
My mom just tries to control everything about me, from how I look, or my hair, especially my brain ability, I sometimes wish she would just accept me for the way I am RIGHT now.
This summer, I really wanted to go out of state, and just walk around everywhere in new clothes and just have fun you know?
But of course we can't do that because of financial issues. I know my parents are going through a hard time in that area as it is, so I don't want to say anything to them, but I really did want to go.
I feel so trapped at home with my parents. I used to cry in the summer because they were never around, but now I find it backwards, I cry because of the way they act when they're here.
I just need to get out despereatelyy.
Any ideas?